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Fatherhood

Episode Summary

Back w/ another one for yo ass! Today the guys speak on fatherhood after the announcement of Mar expecting his first child. We speak on how it felt when you first found out you were having a child. The balance between nurturing and providing. The battles we face as men fightin to be in our kids lives. The effects of growing up without a father on people. What your father did or didn’t do and what you plan on doin different as a father. We also spoke on a topic that started on IG earlier this week pertaining to the transgender community. Follow us on Twitter and Instagram @1famradio

Episode Transcription

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I got away with that I was on fire yesterday to.

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OK, I'm Keith Sweat.

Yeah.

Yeah.

Yeah, you have.

I'm Keith Sweat.

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So I think they know that.

Buildings skinny kids, played out, though she's been out of style.

I skim channel to Bomberman.

But life he come with the president was Lickin.

It was a nice case you know, he was like.

Let me know who's winning but here, he was winning to ground him, yeah, he can't wait to see.

He was holding that but

Yes, he did hold on.

He did.

To that witness yes, thank you.

That yeah, he was holding.

On to every four years that came after that, everything that she's overweight.

Thank you.

What's up man?

We're here now we here where we could.

Come back, I just got off work, which I said legal work for laughs out.

Yeah, we got all the work done.

Let me take you out, so we gotta get that much money you earned without the whiskey there.

Reagan.

Let me tell you something we went ahead and you said that **** I had to pull the fuc.

He was not opposed.

So when you said that you but listen.

Then he do this, though, so mark called me right, he said.

He said hello, he said hello Chelsea hello he said yeah I think I'm gonna follow.

Through I say I hate this thing in your funniest part, no, but it's funny.

You like Trump.

No no no no no.

So say that you should ask.

That's It 'cause.

He he reminds me of collie dog, he's a little **** and he's so ******* calm like he put the medicine in the candy, but the Nigar.

I called it I called it nigar the next day.

Next Monday, he don't answer, so I will say that I get the call.

Yes.

He called me.

I don't hear nothing.

Then I just said.

Rewet naked.

So yeah, all right, I think.

But not this week was telling I always was me.

It was good.

I got some good news.

In

Well you I know I sent it over here.

The things covered, oh.

Days disco

I did I got I got a kitchen **** out it's bad for.

Me, you know?

Yeah, that's why I've been here.

Yeah, I've been here.

Your trials and tribulations.

How?

For me, for me it's personal.

First come first serve.

I've been being devastated, but.

For years straight.

Yes.

Toto.

Stop telling more like Damn Well, you let me do a server oh ****

Oh yeah, I had to.

I got inserted.

I had to plug each other, but my God.

Got inserted.

Man, that's it.

Then they can still.

Talk about that.

Then actually I would not need to talk about.

There's some new man being in the negative.

Having that should **** you up.

Yeah, like mentally like yeah.

Yeah.

I get the the you over here what?

Oh oh, your tax bracket.

Yes, exactly that money I.

Yes, exactly that money.

So I mean, I hate it.

Never used to being in the, you know.

In the black tax bracket, that's why it's not.

Yeah, it's like that.

Yeah, like that.

That's one of those good problems.

No no no.

No problem, but.

No, it ain't.

But I heard it when you told me to get back or no.

They no good problem.

Oh, that's 'cause I put it in there.

Yeah, I I I never hold this much.

Then

I'll before but not this more dishes.

Kids pay off man when they get older.

You ain't gotta worry about cleaning.

Yeah, well by doing dishes they do all that text I'm coming.

So you eat it.

Yeah, nationally one you can't live one day a year.

It don't matter if you if you you handle that brand right you get mine online.

No no no it's not my angle hot I.

I feel what you saying but just in that moment.

When I heard the numbers, yeah, I'm about to start shooting the club.

Yo everyone.

If you do something with the money you can told you I I went from I went from wanting the Gucci sneaks right?

It is the principle of getting the money.

For the nine.

Then I'm gonna put into a food truck so the money go balance money going back.

They don't know you know people.

Some people become pockets, meaning I put it say all that.

Oh, I was talking about the government money.

No.

This is Peter business voice here.

Say you need one Fr LLC yo.

Yo.

The the topic that you Oh yeah so.

Did like high level read more on the.

Alright so last week, we started doing a segment where we gonna start being more interactive on the show and every every week.

Eat some ******** today.

I probably do like IG live in this specific.

Maybe just to get the feedback from the listeners or whatever you know.

The younger tapinto don't feel like yeah, y'all can't I bet.

Yeah, definitely tappin comment on it repost this shared DM me call me, text me whatever but.

I want to start getting more interactive, which are that be listening.

So I started it off with a.

A topic does.

Attack.

Not touching to me, but people you know thought it was.

So basically

It's a it's a growing sentiment going around that.

From a commute from, like the LGBT community that basically saying.

If you are a transitioning woman.

The translation is transsexual let.

Transition.

So I think that would that mean?

Me, but I never heard of it.

Through sexual meaning, uh, a transsexual right?

You're a train.

OK, cheers.

Crazy, so that's something special to a man or man.

This is so totally Jeffrey.

Transitional woman, both ways.

Either way.

But the the sentiment was that.

They're not obligated to.

They're not obligated to disclose that information with anybody.

And where did that?

Good so.

I respectfully disagree with it because my.

My response to that was.

OK, let's so let's.

Let's put in a date in terms.

You're you, you end up talking to somebody in their transition and you don't know or first sight.

That's a rumble.

Right?

But it's a rumble.

It's not available if you if you know flat out.

It's not disrespectful to just disclose that you rather than disclose it in the beginning or or if you go the whole way.

That's yeah, but they're saying they don't have to.

Again.

And then before you say who, that's before you, tell me what your name.

Is so my whole my whole response to it was.

So if I'm a heterosexual man, you telling me you don't have to tell me that?

Will you?

Will.

If we talking on that level.

How far?

Oh

How far?

Because you got the ball in your court you you had that information.

Right, I should be, don't you?

That's basically you setting people up for for something they not into but.

But then I don't consider like is that hey good.

That's the question.

Can a connection question before we go?

Kind of where?

Who's the people that saying don't disclose that information?

'cause I believe people.

The people from that community that.

Yeah, that's I have like family members and but that.

Yeah, me too that's.

Why they would never think that.

But

Think what, don't tell somebody.

So the Senate heart get that.

I I think I think what they.

Demographic or is this is just UH-30, not ash negers or vicious. They wanna say that.

Are thinking is no no no.

I think it's such a I think it's situational because because because like you said.

You got failure.

They probably do it, whereas though some of them don't and that's the ones that you, saying getting beat up or whatever.

So is the more they do with the money, though, is it is it is in.

Lumps I don't. It's basically.

I don't know.

I know.

Yeah.

Is basically as a.

Alright, so.

Let's put it like this.

Remember child looking man.

He came in here and he shouted out the chip.

What was the name Diamond Foxx and she like that she a pornstar no.

Yes.

I remember no not cut you off, but no, the black.

Saudi King man.

I hate John flood.

I remember the gentleman that was going around being viral to join Sydney start like the world famous Instagram model that was the transgender.

He

So was like this all the people for.

I know she.

And that's cool.

But she told everybody she does one thing.

And that's another are, so are.

So let me break down the scenario to get to it so alright, so buddy.

No, no, no no.

Before you finish kids.

This is somebody hit me up about that.

It was saying they're not saying disclose that in a relationship.

Period, I agree.

They stand for his job, military and all that they say you don't have to.

Oh no yeah yeah right yeah yeah yeah.

That's what the effort was.

I agree with that.

But far as a relationship I.

Think that's we go this far?

As far as yeah yeah, so with that I agree.

Yeah.

Like no, you don't gotta tell nobody.

Nothing like I agree with that.

Yeah, but I feel as though.

You should tell that before you tell me what your name is like, that should be #1.

As far as what if?

Anybody if we get it?

You just like this.

Somebody respect, yeah, you tell me that before you tell me your name like you might take it the movies and thank you.

Did you?

Bought the ticket of flower and then you wind up doing a rub and tug.

Yeah right, it's a break.

Yeah, right, it's break.

Rock, paper, scissors say thank you.

Got it.

Would you say would?

She pull out, you pull out.

There was a hand over his mommy.

Funny.

I came in you.

He came with Papa.

Yeah, yeah, there we go.

What I would do, but I wanna.

I wanna pull out because like as as as a as a straight man.

It's like.

For people to think when it comes to that, we not opposed to have any kind of disclosure.

I just I just felt that those like it's unfair.

So if I'm a heterosexual man.

Is cool for me to get right to sleep an end up there even if it don't happen.

It's like come on, yeah, they'll get right to sleep you ********** get rocked to sleep like.

That was a crazy scenario.

Yes.

What getting sick?

Yeah, saying we will support you today.

Put you down.

He said he tell you his name is Montez and you ain't Phil.

We knock you out.

So I won't read.

I wanna read I wanna read some of the peoples.

You wake up feeling like you sitting on stitches.

I'ma read some of the some of the shop that Jade Queen Chicken head followed up makeshift ticket ticket.

Queen chickenheads

From the yeah.

You ain't **** back here, she said.

From my understanding, they are not saying they don't have to disclose their gender to the person they meet is more, so it's not something they have to tell unprovoked right away.

Now, On the contrary, anyone that anyone has a right to ask something new with it.

Ask someone knew what their gender is, what their sexual orientation is.

What they identify as people always want to come add a person for not disclosing information when you never even asked my response to that.

So if I meet someone as a straight man that I think is a woman I'm supposed to double check.

Now I agree with you. That's all about the same, but it's crazy because today she got a point. Where is that? What you saying is the norm, but today she actually got a point. You have to them. That's how crazy it is 'cause they got a gender XI work with a guy. He got 2 two girl cousin.

I agree.

Here I say my my female cousin.

He get mad they didn't change their name to neutral names and they say gender X so was like so you don't offend people now you actually gotta.

Even though it might sound like a dumb question you gotta ask.

Some questions, yeah, I'm gonna say how offended do you get if I first need to check and I say just off the.

Rip are you a woman?

Yeah, were you born a woman and can I see baby pictures or some type of her exactly so it's not the norm where your kids that.

To say what's up with you, yeah.

Home right now.

Let's start here.

Yeah.

I mean all right.

But without my father did you mom wasn't home, so she didn't ****

But that's uncomfortable, though that's uncomfortable, was like what doubt you got.

What is what is like?

If I mean I got doubts based on.

When it becomes the norm, it's like now when you first need to check, you can say to hurt.

When I.

Do you deal?

Girls, and that's like a thing now.

If that became number that became normal you got.

I don't get offended no more.

It's like Oh no, that became normal.

Ahead, but you know.

You ever experiment with females?

Then they'll be like, yeah or no, it's the new norm.

Yes, you think that they'll be just as comets asking them if they are a woman.

It depends on the person.

I mean, no, it's not normal, so the woman eventually I mean off the rip she gonna get offended.

I can't say that.

Alright, another comment was from underscore Mia 90 three, she said.

Listen is 2021 is.

There's a those flames system.

Alright, she was here when I was here. No, alright, I'm snitching. Listen it's 2021 and you'll be surprised with some of these men get into. I agree with that. So disclosing that you are trans will save you all the extra things that does come with not being upfront about your sexuality. I'd rather have him all ******* know and decide to either leave me alone. Will try something new.

No.

There's also some code.

And like you said, it's a lot of situations turned sour from people not disclosing that information.

Yeah.

If this year twist right though.

Again.

Mr Twist where I?

Go you leaving in the air though as.

Far as where I.

Stand no, I'm just saying if you twist like you wouldn't know but.

You know how I look at it?

It's not the same, but.

I feel as though something like this.

Would be it's not the same, but to me it would be equivalent to someone having a SCD.

Yes, I said that.

Did you know that they just lose that to me?

You said and I didn't mean no disrespect by it even.

Yeah you should.

You should disclose that to me before we go forward before I even get the first base right?

Yeah, I mean it won't let.

Even with that, though, even if you disclose that.

Tell me and I'm I'm, uh, is about to get physical.

We beef and all that I'm not even going.

It's not even my obligation that once you get me that information in the past that you're doing this not even not.

I I'm full, I didn't.

Even I'm just fooling cool, yeah.

And that be the same sometimes it's like.

I feel like we not allowed to decline like there's no right way to decline like somebody could walk in here right now.

No.

But what?

Be like I'm trying to be like alright I said it's like yo like you gotta look at the news that is is less than likely that people feel the way you feel.

But but yeah.

Right.

They they already scared from the rip because they like alright maybe somebody and I'm saying.

So they that's when they get on offense and that's.

We might beat him up or whatever, that's why, but they get on the office too.

I mean, I don't know, I'm just I'm just saying for like.

So they, on the grand they follow like like like like like like like like like Message.

Did you know that like it's like?

No chick act like that like cool out.

Yeah that's it.

I'll be on the you know one that far he's playing defense like like no.

Yeah.

Let me see I got.

I got one more.

It's actually shouted Cudi.

This is mom, she said.

I think it's a double edged sword because someone would be offended that they were attracted to a once man and it can turn sour at that point.

Yeah, that's what I just said.

Yeah?

So those are very fine line between being up front and then risking to beat them.

But I absolutely believe if a straight man, his transgender woman that maybe she should get his number and had that.

So when he talks.

Oh

The guy won't be embarrassed or can't, and they can end or begin their over the phone and in private.

I like that.

No, it's not I mean that.

I respect that I.

Mean that again there like there is.

I think that's going to our point is like Taylor of a front end today we know when someone is trying to be a friend.

I mean are we trying to be more than friends?

Huh.

We know that any adult would know that those who don't sit in time.

You know I'm trying to get at you.

And you want me to be blonded 'cause you?

Indivisible.

You be dropping that bag when you try and get that.

Did he say he thought it was?

Hello, what are all these crab legs homie?

Damn, purse, yeah that's something that's that's that's

Bro I mean bro, I give they saying but.

Good.

We we talking about.

They have appointive

At the end of day we if everybody is an adult, you know when someone China is just like we we working together.

We got a general relationship.

There's a work relationship, whatever at you know you try to do something.

Uh huh?

At the work?

Yeah, that's naked dog.

Wait, a minute.

Well, wait, that's when we need that button take.

So we need the wool button.

Like me at that point, you know you should disclose that like yo homie, it ain't it.

Homie.

Ain't that or.

I was, you know, I mean, you know you can't, not just.

So that was just I just think as as.

I thought it beginning.

Did we not talking about no?

I just think as if it.

Hey what's up?

If it comes to just in general, then no, you don't have to disclose enough.

But if you come to.

Being intimate or something like that, or taking it somewhere else, is like I would.

Again, you get.

I would appreciate it.

It's not there again like we did.

You know.

I mean, a lot of straight men would appreciate it.

I mean, again, like those, there's different conversations, adult no one adult was trying to talk to them and I don't know.

We just trying to be friends.

Made in China is no double edged sword.

If you tell me that in the beginning we know.

Come on if I ask for your number and you tell me when I'm asking for your number, I used to be a man.

Cool, but don't give me your number.

Then we start talking and you say, oh, I got something to.

What right 'cause you already been in there?

They just

You already then you already thinking about going for.

It I did like.

Speaking of the man.

Speaking of the man, I'm sitting next to the man while you guys.

Were good news for us.

Yeah, I just stepped out actually.

Finally Times Day there's gonna be a Valentine's Day to remember.

Just found out it would be a day officially that.

You welcome that will work.

There you are.

You welcome he could do it.

Yeah, I mean Oh yeah, yeah yeah uh Charlotte Orlando my kissing me yeah I mean Florida Florida baby.

Who's this guy?

So yeah, so you gotta.

Would you?

Would.

Add spice when a baby born you got black.

You know you was.

Made on the beach yeah of.

Course next to the Gators socks on.

Under the sunset.

Yeah, thanks a.

Lot yeah, socks off.

You know that so please stop it.

Hello man man.

Now you know it's crazy, you know what I was thinking about today?

In the village.

You know, I think the other day is you're glad you didn't get in the pool.

It might have been, somebody else might have been in the blood.

I said

Somebody else would have been that.

Thanks.

Would have gotten that Cuzzi Bull Christian Jacuzzi from the Rep so.

Yes, yes, he left his mark left his stamp in there from the roof.

They get in there they.

They dim down the lights, but she was overturned, but boiling Das Rishta Kendall.

Turn off the light.

It was like, oh.

The way she did it, it was like a heart shaped box that had like chocolate in there.

But you take the chocolate though, so when she gave it to me is empty, but it's something in there right on it, so I'm shaking and shaking it.

I'm playing around like you know, just cracking jokes.

From my home in my mind, why?

Why?

What is this?

So I take the tape off the box that she had already unwrapped it at the place for it, but she just took like Ridley Scott State and put it on the sides so I took it off and I seen a stick.

Miss.

It was upside down.

So first I'm looking at this like alright with this.

I turned it over.

And I've seen the two lines.

I still don't know the difference, but.

I mean, even that's why I was stuck at.

But the fact that.

She gave it to you meant yeah?

Yeah, I was stuck in like alright trying to read it.

So it was like a delayed reaction and then for like a good minute or two I'm just staring at the box.

What?

True.

Well.

Oh yeah.

I mean, I already stared at that box, so the new box.

I'm like I'm staring at the stick and it said.

Let's not do this.

Yeah, no, it's not crazy.

I just said the Bucks, yeah, so.

And then we let off with.

The training in this situation.

The crazy tired yeah.

Yeah.

I'm staying at the five sadistic.

So I turned it over.

When I finally realized what it was, it was like a good 10 minute delay reaction.

And it just hit me like damn really by the like this, no, I'm asking like like for real.

Because of the the double shot that she took, we wasn't really expecting it to like maybe like June lot of summer time so.

I'm just asking like yeah for real and she's like yeah and then I just like you know from there it.

Gave her a big hug.

Kiss

I had to man up a terrorist by the drop for a second 'cause it was just like damn like now I've been playing dead to him for a minute, but now I really gotta get that it into place bro, I'm

No.

You say that job like that.

Waiting, I'm waiting for him to say what he did after all that who you called Nega?

Nobody I sat on the couch and they were just like just like kind of like.

What you want he said.

You say

He said that he said that.

What you want to do is we.

So we could we could.

Want before we go right?

Let me see job play this scenario right?

To piggyback off of that same question, are you still on that?

I'm just saying, what if she didn't tell you until like?

I say 5 months and she said it is a situation where it could be yours or not.

How would you have felt?

Left Hook right cross.

If my point, my point with this situation.

He knew, right?

Like that he would have to fight it.

In a flash know.

If you would've knew right away, clappy if you wouldn't know right away.

And a flush to see me.

I said, well, I said.

Only problem would you would.

You feel differently, you aren't pregnant.

It's probably not be yours.

Yes it the same way like same way.

Oh I'm we try to get together.

I'll probably be a man come on.

She like 5-6 get addicted. I seen it ain't flush.

Tell me right.

Now in French.

Yeah, by the top handle it go like my scout wouldn't be, sorry.

What you want, what you want?

I mean right now I'm like in between.

But as far as like my side majority of my side when a girl majority has, I want a girl at this point.

It's far before.

Anybody say that man?

For me it just it really don't matter.

They say you know if if the girl on top you get a boy.

He was on top you gotta girl hey Black you.

Know we gotta use for the cover art.

That's that box when I get bigger, the rubber ducky.

Bye.

Oh yeah.

It's an heirloom, his favorite toy.

Yeah so.

When he was a young.

Boy, I mean first finding out that it just it is like a if anybody who ever been through it whoever our listeners about this fathers it's like a it is like a rush.

It's like a rush of excitement that hit you all at one time 'cause it's like, especially if it's something that you want.

It ain't, it's not something it's unexpected, but it's not too unexpected.

Yeah.

That's the difference.

Like I never wanted my kid.

I love you.

****

I never wanted like why am I young when.

I was 17 so it was like.

Alright, so would you start, you know, hold on, hold on, hold on job telling on so you started off?

Listening well my girl told me.

What was your?

When you first found out about AJ.

I'm gonna tell you exactly the same when she told him, I said congratulations, no father, that's what I said.

No, it was.

It was.

I didn't think it was missed text.

But she sent you a text.

She told she called me she thought I said oh congratulations, you know, I guess we can go talk.

To him, because I thought.

It was about oh wow.

Well.

Boy, that's why I told.

Him, it wasn't no reaction when my daughter was different, right?

Because like before my daughter came we had an abortion.

We Fort like we we.

Broke up those women times army breakups.

Yeah.

Yeah.

'cause she did that, you know she she told me she felt as though she she told me so that was violent like but she never told me how I felt or gave me a choice in the matter.

Yeah and I mean I felt some type of way about that.

When Eva cancellations broken links.

Another knife.

Mouthfeel is getting dark and I got it.

Yeah, but I feel with you saying like I never like I never wanted like you was actually trying like there's something you wanted like my man came along.

I was like you know, I mean I was trying but it was like.

I ain't gonna say I would.

You told me you were trying you.

We at that point where the closer.

Shouldn't say I'm just talking.

Oh, you just talking.

Yeah.

So this is like it was just car conversation.

You know how they go?

But but it was like a.

Check on my man, he called me.

He was like he was like such but it seems like he was coming.

Yeah, I remember that.

I was crying like she pregnant again.

I said.

Pain again, but what's wrong they.

All right, well which window the second one?

Should remember the abortion.

I don't know so.

The second one?

So, so I mean, that's a horse miscarry.

'cause you know it's a big factor that so.

That was for the Twins.

'cause I don't remember TJ.

I don't remember that part, but that was when we went when I found out it was Twins 'cause she told me she was when I found out it was Twins we was in there and then the ultrasound it.

Yeah, but well, he was like.

Good.

Was like baby a.

Oh, she hesitated, she said, hey, the fucjing baby and she said, baby I said what that means she said it's Twins I said what the **** So she's like yeah congratulations you're having Twins I'm like damn yeah.

Yeah, I got three bodies.

I guess.

Guess.

Stupid *****

The way you lifted a year.

Yeah, I'm like damn I just like fun.

Nice.

I thought about.

Hold on so that that that treat this is just saw her side.

I don't believe.

I don't.

Dish I don't know no Twins.

My side hurts you know their mind when they got my head.

So all right?

Yeah, no no.

Yeah.

I'm saying as far as like ****

So I'm saying 'cause I thought about that when I, you know, that's the first thing you think about.

I thought about that, I'm like.

I'm not talking Twins in my family and I don't know you don't know 20 but I'm like I don't know but maybe I'm just that great.

And then with Twins on your side, right?

So yeah.

You know I'm saying that cuz it runs a long line of people in my family and I'm saying like what that he got me and my brother we got different models but we do look just alike then.

Yeah.

I got a brother that had two.

Kids in one year.

It's just that a country when we put it in there we put it in there.

You know, I'm saying.

I'm saying.

But when I had it, when I found out he was having Zoe, I was taking this.

It.

I'm taking a **** She came in with a stick and I was looking.

I'm like that's what's up.

Right, I feel you.

And so, and then, when she when she left out like I basically 'cause I play it like I was she, she walked out.

I feel you on that point.

I kind of felt bad.

I'm like no, I'm happy.

She was like having my year.

But then I found out she was a girl for the genderized, Madison.

I hold I was mad.

Normally I don't care, but I wanted to buy you.

Now I want a boy so bad she keeps saying no.

I'm about to go home tonight.

I have ******* birth control step all remember 50 Cent and get hurt and I tried.

I did not but I don't need none of this ****

You press up all of this.

Auto fills up and I'm gonna put one in there but the only thing I'll be thinking about though is like 'cause the world is just getting bad I'm I'll be like damn like my daughter too and she gotta be bored.

I better do I want to bring another one that's just me being selfish 'cause I wanna know why.

Won't boy, but it's like I feel like I mean.

I mean, I feel with you.

Saying my my mind a little bit different.

Yeah, I'm not sure if you spoke on that.

You know, I mean.

Me know what I knew now like the ending fate like I notice like at the end of the day.

We these kids out of dollar fine.

What she's saying God?

So she made end in feet and in the day he is only one phase.

The only thing we promise is Def.

I don't think about you gotta think about living man.

That's the Philly mindset.

Saying what?

You you live in.

Basically that's the Philly mindset.

People with Philly, they live, they die.

Instead of like.

Not in the list.

They're they're not dying a living I wanna I wanna create memories Fuqua, everybody.

No, I ain't say none of that.

No.

Now with the name says something back in the day a dash said life is a dash and he was like explaining that he was like you got your birthdate and you're deaf deep.

Yeah.

But in between is that dash make that dash count making something that's remember yeah.

I agree I totally agree, but my my point is that's the only doesn't want the reason why I don't want to handle kids will want.

To put him through that, let me ask you this, that with the with the people that you lossed I was close to you, right?

Well us 'cause we share the same we family.

You don't ever think about like bringing another life into bring that joy.

It ain't gonna be the same, but you could create new memory 'cause that's that's another reason why I keep saying I want a boy 'cause my one of my best friends died.

So it's like if I have another boy it it kind of fill that fill that void.

You know I'm saying that's why, that's why I think of it.

I feel you, but this is my, you know.

I mean death is not so bad depending on how you.

I'll prepare the garbino.

I'm big on memories I wanna go through things but as far as like.

Giving somebody else that fate.

I mean that feat.

That does mean a snake.

That depends on how your life turns out.

Does mean a snake?

I like, I feel like my life is great.

Yeah, so if your life is great you will see it get death can be great but it's not gonna be like a painful death or something that's.

Please.

If I if I can double all timers, yeah?

Like

You might die in your sleep man with your grandkids show.

Yeah, well kiddo love.

You like?

What about you when you first met?

1st.

You got four piece right, four individually, so it was like, oh.

The first

The first one, they really he really hit 'cause I had.

I was thinking like the provided part of his kicked in so when she said she was praying I just started crunching numbers right good?

Oh

I got a question not essential, but how old was we when we first had our first?

I think that plays a part of it too.

How funny three honest woman.

That was 17.

You certainly you know.

30

I mean, so are we me.

Space.

Hey.

And certainly I think I would like it did me.

Yeah yeah, yeah.

But when they happen then we were still running wow.

Well.

Yeah, so every every every child after that.

I was cool 'cause that's the only thing that came to mind.

Just just crunching.

I know I'm that.

I don't.

I never understood men that get scared and run and all that up while shot.

That was never that was never in it.

I was just I was just crunching numbers and I knew what I was having every time.

Before that we had dreams about it and.

Start yeah, but would you say like, yeah, that's Bruno.

She said my grandma, my grandma was telling she tell everybody what they have, yeah.

But

But what you saying?

No, that's really the first thing meant Chubb in the car we talking.

That's right.

I'm like damn, how much still get my money?

But still, like you know, Bill Father and he was just like no your first couple years is like the baby.

Not gonna really notice that you're not around.

An an as men we got me and Kaylee was talking about this.

Kids don't give a **** about money, they don't fact.

Don't know and that's that's that's what that's what me and him, just that we we don't agree with 'cause I told him I told him I said now like he's always being too.

Right?

OK.

I could work a lot because she know who I am, but the memories coming up if it wasn't for me being around her when she was like from from born to two, she wouldn't be who she is.

Umm, like she playing all that she wouldn't be like that because it's like we might not.

We might not feel like they miss you but they do you know.

I mean you want if you're not there from that time.

When they babies, you won't get that.

Oh I miss Daddy even though you there 'cause she knew she notice when she started talking with my dad when my dad she come out of daycare everyday.

I'm there now my dad happy and she know because I'm always with there.

That's why I like that.

That's why I get what you saying.

Far as with the work, and it's a time, but it's like I told him, you gotta be selfish now.

I was an ******* at Pep Boys y'all remember I was always at work.

Yeah.

EJ was coming to Pep Boys to see me.

That's how much the **** I was at work and I look at I look at it between the J and the rest of them is.

Like I see the difference in growth, but yeah.

Yeah, that's the stuff that I believe that totally would be dead.

That's it, I mean no.

Would you send?

Different if it was 'cause even when you're not at work. Not at work 24 hours. You probably did for 16, but the.

8 hours, but when they baby the baby stage, you saying their sleep so you wanna you don't wanna miss on it while you at work.

You might miss a walk in all that **** matters.

That was something I I hated that every time you surely will argue I would miss her.

Yeah, yeah, that's it.

I would have to see that.

Man, I got it on the phone.

That only reason why I'm saying that because you know the two different situations I I didn't watch all that with the 1st.

Yeah, but I mean yeah.

3.

Now I don't see now that with Zoe I will never miss that **** again.

I could go.

But the car didn't start for you.

Broke for you.

No it didn't, but I actually seen it.

But I'm talking bout far as like constantly.

I actually see now that I'm not missing this **** for nothing.

I could be broke.

I'm gonna set the flag home if you if I know if I see your legs getting strong I'm gonna start home waiting for that **** on my phone out I wanna see all that ****

It's almost like.

Memories there right there.

I missed a lot of.

Though that's like the.

That ship by what you saying is.

It's like it's like that.

You gotta find that that middle ground that's where I'm stuck at 'cause it's like I don't wanna miss stuff but at the same time you know in this world, for you to provide and to be.

Like I want more for my kid like I don't just want to be around away, I want us to be like.

Far away from the.

BS, You gotta understand.

Wherever you at is where they gonna be at so.

No, it's not about that.

It's just the environment I want my kids in.

So right now right now is when you grind it up before.

That's another thing.

Yeah.

Oh, he told me he said you do all that before someone that comes the baby come.

Everything is in place.

Yeah.

So that way you know it ain't always gonna be like that.

That yeah.

But that's just something that always sending me so I never thought about.

Yeah.

It, but I don't love.

That's why I'm getting on with her day like Karere first family second, 'cause once you get.

Don't be allowed.

So me and Callie was we.

We had a good conversation about ship that might have did or didn't happen as kids with the with the father in our life I mean.

Don't get Lausten money when it comes to kids.

Though well, you could you could be the richest no dad.

All right, all right look this week so I just create no, that's why there's no no.

I'm telling you so tally bro.

That's why I disagree, right is where we come from I'm not raising my kids and no drug infested crime infested neighborhood that's me that's me.

I hear you, I hear you.

I'm not raising my kids is not going to Frankfurt.

My kids is not going to none of that.

I want them in of 'cause when you go to like alright, you look at a school like central, right?

That's a college prep high school.

Every kid in there is worried about the next 10 years.

When you go to Frankfurt, we always were in the boat after school.

School ask keep a role in our Community School anything is not a cool.

Nothing.

Great, I remember it would be times where I used to have to hide being a student.

Because, you know, it wasn't cool.

But I want my child to grow up in environment.

With that is cool.

You could be the environment wherever you, at no.

I I gotta ask, how do I say I hold on hold on I get where I get where both of you are saying I get what you saying there's more than money I get what you saying right?

It's it's it's.

But like I told you that day was moving right?

You don't want to get caught up in it where is money, money, money?

Because you're not never going to reach the goal that you looking for.

Once you reach that goal, you gonna have another goal, right?

And then when you look up the memories that you should have been created is going to be going.

I was living up horsemen apartment.

That's one of the best school districts.

You know what I'm saying.

So when they always about the rich like you in a position where you can move your kid to a good school district right now, yeah, you know.

I mean, it's just maintaining it and then taking the next step by there.

That's why I always tell you.

Don't get lossed in it.

I get what you saying.

You always want better for.

Because you can be up there and be on your ground all the time and then it still dwell back down to the hood because you're not around.

Your child, but I stayed there.

You know, I could say.

What?

You want your.

Grind one thing I could say is right.

Well.

One thing I could say.

It happens bro.

I mean, no, it's like this like, alright, that's awesome 2 coming to the partner you with my girl now don't let the sun go down South Philly at all.

No, no.

He said well he said I get what you saying too.

Alright, I see the join with TR.

Yeah, since his kids were born he be rich.

He brought him to the hood now they not they never was Hood.

Now they want that hood mentality.

Why?

Because it's something that they're not used to.

That's another thing you gotta realize if they'd be like that where you from.

Along from whatever whatever they wanna start analyzing it.

'cause you know now social media is like this, they're gonna start looking it up and they might glamorize it.

Yeah yeah, but I I will.

I will say this.

It's no right on way to do it, no matter what, no matter how well we feel that we doing a good.

Well yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

Job, yeah, and.

God forbid they would.

Sometimes they could disappoint, like hey, you know identity.

You got a lot of time, you know. I mean, there's still gonna be a father's ago. Yeah only.

You know it.

It.

Doesn't taste, yeah, that's what my conversation was.

Thing I'm gonna say and that's why.

I'm here, that's something I can't wait because I'm not I'm I'm not going over 18 because I see a lot of that old 18 or 21 I'm good I'm out a lot of.

I don't think that's something I don't know I.

That is the whole.

Think need a different parent?

Once you become an adult?

Yeah, but I fixed it.

Yeah it up 'cause now they can open that book like right?

But I fixed it.

But do you mean like you say in school just to do what I didn't do?

What I wish I did was set goals.

They start going to school at 5-6. Got five years like this. I see him saying you got five years and no matter we love our kids with their kids. Gonna be around us. Yeah but a lot of them think just taking on your own.

Did you see the?

Last two months.

Alright, now I want to.

Hold on, let me ask you this, what did you say AJ say and your daughter said when he was working too much?

Like when you went and picked?

What?

It was actually they wanted me to pick him up.

You know what I'm saying?

That's what that's what I'm saying.

I don't think, but again, the age we talking ages right now.

No, we're talking about kids.

This is general right now.

Yeah, I feel you but my kids are older and I told you I would like.

I get it.

I gave you that.

To that we offer we offer that initial.

Now I'm telling him far as what goals like you said you said set goals is always that's why I was saying it more.

Maybe something will be more so it's never going to the whole man object.

That's why I said I get what?

Or incoming front?

Yeah, kids come first, if AJ even tell you right now that you work too much, we want to see you here.

You're quitting one of them jobs, regardless of where where you want to be at in like financial year.

Quit when I'm done right or wrong.

That's why I'm saying that kids come first.

So I get where Cory said.

But in that regard though, right right, and we're getting like all right, and I I get what we are saying.

But I also give it by saying.

But in that regards though, right what you just said?

A kid don't always know what's best and visit to the kid will just be home all day with him.

But we know that's not reality.

Tell you that Mark really Mark.

I did.

So when do you break that?

No, I get that.

But you heard what I just told Chop Chop have.

He could actually live off one of the jobs.

Yeah, that's when you do it, but it's like, well, you don't have no job.

Yeah.

That's like with.

You, if you never see your child, you have both of your jobs.

You're going to quit one of the jobs, yeah?

That's what I'm saying.

That's why now I'm saying no no what?

But you hold on hold on, that's why.

I said you had a Liberty where you can do that.

They also too right with going to my mind frame I seen it.

I've seen it as far as what my uncle, the person that I look up to.

Michael.

I seen it.

I seen go from rags to.

I mean not actually rich, but I see him do it by doing what he had.

Kids.

Yeah, how do you feel about him?

He waited to his, I mean in our community it was late. He was 35 when he had his first Masters degree well into his food and his wife both got high positions. They got they able to be flexible when they scheduled, so he's able to move his kid.

Out until a better neighborhood, better school district, they coming up in a better environment here, all right?

I hear all this.

Yeah, all that.

How old is the kids?

One M16 the other one just turned 14 WA relationship. Like great they best friends and they did it.

Right, not everybody can make them not.

Yeah no, no no.

It's not right membertou there is no right.

Anybody to find a balance though?

That's what I'm saying it just trying to find the balance.

But as I will go, of course, in the beginning I might make some mistakes.

Where damn I I should have been at work a little bit more 'cause I missed out on this or I should have been home more 'cause I missed out on that.

I I was talking to them they will talk to a lot.

They you got you got your ups and downs that go through it but at the same time it's like a.

Is always is like you said there's no right or wrong because you need money to provide for your family, but you also need to be spend time with your family as.

I'm speaking.

Well as natural vacations are important man.

I'm speaking from a I'm speaking from up, but I'm speaking from a position of being adult.

But also, being a child of people that might or might not chose money over certain things you get, I'm saying, yeah, that you thought they can just come around to put a bankroll around, or just show a bankroll.

Yeah.

Yeah, I mean, suppose now I talking with colleagues and and you know certain ship and I talked to other people that that that can look back on their relationship with their parents.

That's why I said.

Hello.

Yeah, I mean it's like.

Yeah it was cool, but you know I'm saying you don't wanna do that but it's like it's like that's why I said you said you said your uncle did it right now imagine your uncle not saying he satisfied 'cause I don't know.

But let's say he even wanted to be even more wealthier right?

And all that he already got.

He took on more that's that's what my standpoint come from.

It's a balance where there was like.

Hi I got your in a great situation.

Now I can spend time with you.

There's a lot of people that get that mindset like I want the best and they overdo it and now they're not spending no time where?

Oh yeah.

Are you in a position where you can do it?

But that's the reason why I say.

It, like men, had these conversations.

Now before I went to my uncle, my uncle Rick, we was my mom brother.

Both.

We was like yeah before.

It's just like that's my nephew.

Talk about sports.

You wanna do it now?

Now we we having them adult conversations now.

Now I'm starting to see the other side of him before you know how that just like you know how you were growing up that just your mom but now you starting to understand certain stuff.

Now you look at your mom.

Not in a bit.

Not in a bad way that you see her as not a mom.

We gotta go see.

She adult and she home.

Yeah, 'cause you said?

Yeah I just talked to my girl about that.

I'm grown so she yeah so it's just like now we made him talk.

It's just I'm trying to find a balance.

That's why right now I'm scrambling but I'm trying to get this.

You I was about to say calm the.

**** down.

So yeah, I'm trying to get this rolling with my my properties so I can find that like OK.

Let's say I got one or two.

Right now I can drop a job, so now of course I can't be there all the time with my child, but the two job thing is out the window.

Now I just got one, but I still got money to cover without the money did at the job that I'm driving.

I so got something to cover that 'cause at the end of the day I still want my kid.

I'm with the best of my kids.

I said the public school, she said.

But all it yeah, that's confidence in the way.

The way the way will motivate me is.

I wanna I want I want I want to grind to the point where I could pick my kids up and drop him off at school.

Yeah, so So what I mean by that?

Is all entrepreneurship like I don't want to work for somebody 2-3 jobs I wanna have shipped running to the point where is my I'm on my own time on my schedule I could stop doing whatever I'm doing to take the kids. You know what I'm saying, so that's why that's why I say I think different than how y'all keep saying grind or not. I want to grind to the point where I'm at a point where I own **** and I could. Oh alright let me go pick my kids up they can see me all day and I'm still getting money you know what I'm saying?

I don't want to work for somebody is like I I gotta ask can I take off to go to appointment?

I'm 30 I'm not asking you to do ****

I mean from from like separate talking.

No, that that's real ****

Someone will write the balances.

It's like you give the kids what you want, what they want, but they can't have everything.

And that's why it's also it's a partnership.

Both the schedule is flexible, so it's like I she told me I'm not with the whole domain.

Is breadwinner some, sometimes he the breadwinner, sometimes I'm the breadwinner.

They got two kids that play AAU that travel.

So it's like sometimes he gotta travel, which means he can't work that much.

Which means I go, I go to work.

Or it be times where he.

Go to work and I'm home, but at the end of the day, the kids you also got to be realistic with him.

Like Mommy daddy can't be there every time, so it might be daddy pick you up from school, but Mommy take you to school or vice versa.

Hey mark.

I gotta find a balance and remember it's 2.

Y'all doing it, but when that little girl come out that ********* box and look up at you and your life is yours.

Oh yeah, boy.

Let me hear that, oh, you can't give her everything that she said oh but when I'm little little guys look at you you wanna get more?

I know not so.

No, this is another conversation.

From the world.

Me and my girl way that was like how do you?

And you have it here.

It's hard, there's no answer to it.

How do you not?

How do you spoil your kids without making them like without making them lazy?

That's hard 'cause in life you understand whatever you want.

You gotta work for it.

But the same time that's my my little man or my my baby got up on him.

Girls come from.

That'll come just from character, just from living, but they gonna watch it and it might not come from you.

Yeah.

And what you they they start to do?

Still gotta go to school still gotta be outside.

Things that you wanna do.

'cause I spoil as only is is always gonna go out and get whatever for ourselves.

Help they'll turn into who they are.

You know I'm saying but she spoiled.

Yeah.

I get so yo we was Walmart yesterday.

She start crying in the line 'cause she didn't get a dog baby 'cause she know when we.

Go to Walmart.

She always gets.

You know I'm saying when I.

Yeah.

Was on the phone with you, yeah, but then again you look at it like that.

This is how do you teach your kids life lessons without.

Like compromise you.

Like

It comes, everybody wanted peace.

Know you know it's all you know it's all came to my head when you said you have any kids but Jay-Z glory Joan. What Jay-Z song glory.

Yeah.

Yeah, like I said when I when I when I when I had my first child listening I cried every ******* night yeah and then you know when TJ was born you know let me try I just I was happy it was like it was a trophy for me like you know it's all made me cry when he was born.

It makes you groan.

People let me tell you about my best friend.

That's me crying like about you.

I was in the bathroom crying and you know, I got ugly as cry.

So I heard every man got.

Up I heard that not gonna do.

Librado

I got my **** together I went out there and like I asked if I.

It seems crazy.

Want to lick your first day out?

Let me try.

I said I thought I was only one like, right yeah I ain't like it wasn't like a a tear drop but it was like a happy tear though like damn.

Now you be happy.

But yeah, any yoga to cut the biblical court.

I said hard as ****

I did but.

I never had all my kids that I didn't. They didn't have a natural C-section, but they do let you cut it.

Because it's a hard hit, don't it?

Don't go also it.

Don't go off the first, it don't go off the first yeah.

I mean they do no.

Not by the.

Georgia easy snip.

Humans is easy, both awesome.

I I was only so so.

You got hit that they like.

They don't like both of my both of my kids with C sections, but they hold they.

Each day I wasn't.

I guess they gave me out and like this right after it came out they wanted me to cut the way it was close.

OK.

What EJ, EJ.

They treated me like I was an intern.

I was behind ************* I'm like down the papi.

Let me say nothing.

Then with the Twins, Mulan came out first.

And then King wouldn't come out, so they had to do the emergency join. So I had to get out at a C-section. Yeah, I was patient. And then with Zoe, I told him I said I don't know what I'm cutting this ************* he let me cut, I was happy. She looked up at me.

It's like C-section.

It's like.

Like on the side followed by that huh?

I I followed you but it.

I I ask him because like he.

You got it.

Hadn't sucking baby already.

I mean, I plan on doing it.

Yeah, make sure make sure.

Assigned Ooltewah something like this.

Y'all say that.

I knew, you know it's some people, some coaches.

They eat the percentage.

Partner we not yeah it took all that ****

Yeah yeah.

You thought about that.

Now I change the tity milk on accident.

I did it so that's it.

I thought some more niche it like you know, I ain't waiting, I ain't waiting.

I'm not we only six weeks from now we end up.

But

Yeah, uh from 6 feet no *******

Yeah, I don't know.

I don't know who I was off I.

Second, this man that we.

Don't know, I'm not where I would.

This man that we.

Know

Wait, 'cause they always open?

How many men are we?

I don't even put that on us down, wait.

I I just kept you, you stop bleeding yeah, alright.

I don't play with the blood.

Yes.

I do not play with the blood, but once they should.

Start alright, they don't run everything like who?

No idea.

I don't like blood, but besides that.

Yeah.

You know my slogan, what am I?

Chuck rawdog champion.

Professional rawdog are they don't watch the baby then you're starting with the did you watch like any of the babies come out?

Oh

Yeah, I watched when it came out of the soil to hit point.

It's a little present.

You know, like a cone here so you know my head shape already dumb yeah so when I seen him come out with the powers you I was mad I said this to my EJ I said.

The **** is he retired.

Sure.

He came out and then.

This should clear it back up and I see and I was like oh why he cool and I know most satirizes.

My sister put when she had a baby.

I see like she's like when Sean was having this.

Yeah, yeah, yeah yeah, he's pushing.

She could try and yet she had to get up and turn it fell out.

And he fell out, and she almost embarrassingly killed company that.

Used to be the second one come up.

Watching.

Yeah they should be the joke when.

Yeah no nobody.

I tell you.

Well, I mean I I.

Honestly, I wanted to let go real quick.

Just think I would be that experience because I'll be in my head.

I'll be.

I keep hearing about people dying during birth and ****

Oh

Oh, that was on the phone with your mom then yeah.

It would be a.

Lot of people don't realize we don't realize that the.

Thing yeah, yeah.

So I'll be like well I'll be wanting to know like what about this is the pain is the pain that much that they'll just straight pass out and just pass away?

Yeah, people are aware of that.

Yeah, they should actually the word.

Because when that happened but the baby is surviving ship yeah so much when I gotta be there till.

Yeah.

I don't know, I don't know.

I don't know how you are.

Function or nothing like that, but you supposed to keep pumping the whole time they pregnant.

So like you know, all my babies eased out.

I got two.

I got two.

I think I was late.

So so you you watch no me either.

AJ come out or?

AJ they had me in a room when he was doing the C-section and Eva.

Oh no, you couldn't watch him come out.

'cause like.

You said, she said.

Yeah, but they were showing me but not showing that same type of Eva.

Yes.

It was whole bunch.

Seems medical reasons they rushed her out back.

It was bad that.

Alright, if they came out a natural birth or not, but came out like that would you wanna?

Watch it, yeah I I wanted like I wanted to experience that I wanted to see.

My kid, I didn't.

He keeps saying that to me I smile.

Keep saying that I love you how long you have to stay in the hospital.

Well, both of them was playing.

They was planned induce 'cause they stayed afterwards.

Like I ain't getting new water breaking and being going 8 day was quick.

Yeah, I just know.

Like they listened.

We bought the breaking water you didn't induce today 'cause the baby was two weeks over.

I think over 10 days over to do that.

I just know shot out the same area.

Both having.

They got the best care they they broke me.

******* socks roll.

A bed I was along with you in the.

I was ill.

Hospital for today.

I don't remember.

I think it was.

Yeah, they might have been changed, but at this point, but Temple Temple temple treating me like **** they had me on the 15 she wouldn't.

Too late, why they did she write out probably is well like 2 days.

Take.

It yo do not have a baby at Emporio.

They treat remember when we went up there.

Oh definitely 15 today scratching, itching.

Well, forget it I was live.

Yeah.

Yeah, they, I mean they they don't.

They don't keep you in the chair and get you out of it.

Yeah.

Yeah, only people try to get you in there, Libra.

Not that much like the.

Partly how long she was in labor for Oh yeah, that was.

Oh, he was in there for 23 hours. I think. I think 'cause we went for July.

Then she have it.

Then we want a fifth, the 5th.

I finished his job I was doing and then we went there that night.

I think her dad was here.

We just was there.

It was just there all ******* I was mad as.

**** like you could have.

Yeah, I mean my first has lived on this shift of medicine.

Said noise, but in the hospitals.

That he's not smoking smell of the hospital make me weak like I feel like I got something falls in my veins inside shipborne.

I've Madison.

And we and we we had like 3-4 false alarms where we had to go all the way there. And like no no yeah.

Yeah, yeah.

Yeah.

I was getting mad at Shittenou but like once it was like the join like a water broken this official home when she was in labor for.

I was mentioning it to you.

By the whole night.

Yeah, I never would listen water breaking.

He had to get induced yeah yeah that two of the episode or not.

What is that get induced induces?

Did they pop this at?

The baby is over nine months, they gotta.

They gotta take the baby out so they making you have to be Oh yeah, you don't have to be by a certain date even like alright.

Yeah.

Well listen this date they don't give you some medicines.

They going to pop the water only so.

I'm looking forward that March 12 is like our first appointment.

Beneficial?

See to check the heartbeat and all that so.

I'm uh, that's I'm really looking forward to, but this is something that like we all like.

Remember, we already talked about this, but I think we should revisit it is.

Should we get a DNA test?

Should be mandatory at birth?

I mean from my perspective.

Yeah, because I seeing situations where guys.

Even though I said what's up with this situation before, is you find out years later that ain't yours.

I know do they committed suicide because of that?

So it's like like I swing this to a couple females that I had this conversation with as far as a woman go the baby is coming out of you so you can't never deny that.

Unless you like a surrogate, but if that's yours, you baby is all you can.

A woman can never deny baby but a man.

Is always a little percentage of it could be someone elses baby.

Yeah, I think it should be mandatory.

But

Yeah, I think with where my mistake was, I waited till the baby came, then I started I think.

I don't know.

Put the plug in our ear now.

Like yo, you know if she OK with it just hopefully she still still revisit the comments.

Would you do it?

Yeah, yeah, I'm sorry which one?

Yeah, if it wasn't, I didn't want to ask you.

Are you gonna ask someone 'cause that?

Uh so but we we yeah, we kind of like all right because it is right up.

I think that's where it's not.

Why it's not?

That's unacceptable last conversation because.

Yeah yeah it is.

It was brought up.

We talked about this like a.

Year ago, but it should be.

It should be a part of that whole.

You know when you gotta sign the birth certificate?

Yeah.

That's that's why I want you.

For now I'm gonna tell you my my thing.

Yeah, but because of that conversation we already started it and she was like I get what you're saying.

I understand your side of it.

Uh huh.

It's offensive to women, specially if a woman knows she's been loyal and faithful to you.

You don't know.

Don't know.

Yeah, that's that was is she understood that part of I said you don't know it she's like you don't trust me.

Shopping.

It's not that it's just but it's like never.

Know it's like the conversation we just had when I was telling you about my my folks.

So basically.

He added when his daughter was born right?

I just scenario girl tell you she pregnant whatever you want to the whole pregnancy as the debt alright.

Then when a baby born.

You come up to visit the baby, right?

She pressing a button for the cops to come to get you out the joint.

Right now you get kicked.

So you don't.

You don't take the baby home and she give the baby another negar last name.

The neighbor who took them home.

So now I'm going through life that's not my ******* baby.

You just told me that at the beginning, right?

So now, 17 years later they looking for him.

They try and get some child support or bother him.

Child support is going to take a year for this whole custody shift, specially with the pandemic.

So first, before you even get tired, you added the blood.

A blood test done right?

And you can't get no back child support because for one.

His name wasn't on the birth certificate and the baby don't get your last name or his last name.

We got another Nigar last name so I didn't even know that was my baby.

So now if we would've went and got a maternity touch from the rent, this wouldn't have been an issue.

Now when you try to go and get that child support in the back end, it was proven that it was your baby.

Huh?

I'm saying so that's why I feel like it should be mandatory.

To alleviate all situations like that or or somebody somebody 35 and they finally did, they did 70 and they did. They got a week left. Now you rekindle with you.

Yeah.

And your part by the dark, as you have found out there, now you hate your mom for something that wasn't me, right?

Yeah, I mean it had to be our fault.

It could have been a misunderstanding.

Any anything going to play when they come down at like child support and all this and and on top of that Mark had a point chicks needed to because they switched babies.

And, uh, thank you better join so we should be mandatory, period.

Yeah, sorry, yeah yeah I made it so I made it should be.

Yeah no, no.

No no.

I agree, I mean, I think you should, I.

Mean just because my mother today like I said I was talking to my girl but she was like she even cares to know like right now if if they come out with a breaking news saying starting up January 1st of 2022.

Incentive management.

Moving forward all at all births, DNA tests are mandatory.

I want to know why would a woman dispute that?

That's what that's what they need to put in that bill.

**** that minimum wage.

Yeah, yeah, that's right, 'cause you know.

Put that **** in the bills.

That's what they need.

So the Child Support all.

That's just like one of the biggest things in the.

Yes.

So to help women in long Run is a system, why is?

Is that, I hope leave it.

Yet another system they have, yeah.

I had a lot.

Of back all that backed up sit.

So it's like when you look at it like that.

In the daily audit.

I just I'm even curious to see.

Like why would you even just?

Why would a?

Woman dispute that, but nobody pushing for that.

Yeah, it ain't no nobody agenda no.

Is it?

At all, and it's like even now because it's not normal if you even try to ask your lady that or you think it's yeah.

That's in the back of their mind.

Or something so.

And you're not that.

Is it tough coming just like by the eggs getting married then so excellent.

Spring sample abrena yeah.

Abrena yeah.

The most the most common thing when you do ask.

Well, if it come back that is yours.

You never seen his baby.

So what the **** is we asking if his mind for that's dumb as **** Yeah, if you you really want this test when they come back in Georgia and I never gonna see him alright.

Well don't ask me for Johnson.

Hey.

And I'm claiming among tax.

It's very likely.

Yeah, like I shouldn't **** you.

Likely.

You know so by Comarco boy like a.

No.

That is, you know that that causes a problem, but just now, not all of us now leave.

I'm happy to say it now.

I'm a father officially, I ain't really gotta play file with a certain people.

No more, no names, no.

But my point or elbows or not, but but now it's like.

No, that wasn't the one pot.

He thought that was gonna go over.

It new excuse him talking.

I would also now is like.

Now that we all see the other side of the coin right, remember before growing up we didn't understand.

Like you said earlier, how can you have a baby?

And then you run from that responsibility like we said, when you see the baby first look at you in the eyes.

Look about you.

How do you run from that responsibility?

So now on to being on the other side of the coin.

We, in our opinion, which you think starting with black, what's the effects of not having a father with a son or daughter?

Uhm?

Thing it comes down to like it'll make you really impressionable.

And make you want to be a part of something.

Just something, don't matter what it is like.

You're you're, you're better off in the summer, they don't they?

Don't have to.

Be know you'll be the first one in the last one at at football practice or something like that.

You'll be the first one.

The last one in school.

Or you know, you'll be in the projects every day, but you live 2 miles away.

But just to be a part of something like you know, I mean.

And.

I think.

As far as like this in this, with this with Son or daughter you know.

I mean, you'll grow up and you'll see fathers you know.

I mean, and you're, you're resent that **** You got people that walk around that thing growing up with a dad you will ******* noodle when you're a ***** and **** like that or you ain't hard you grow up with your dad like.

You get older and and.

Certain sheets you ain't learn, you get you get older and certain sheet when you get older than you looking up the not as **** glorifying that she I just think without it you real your impression we really impressionable you.

You, you you rebel oh **** the law **** this **** this job I'm out I quit.

Are you looking for the easy way out of shape?

Because you never see nobody really work hard you don't appreciate your mind, your mind working hard as **** you still running around whatever you doing ain't paying her no mind you won't give a **** what she got you making it hard to ship for her.

You went in and out of jail she gotta.

Sell a house and all that **** you know.

I mean you you whatever your friends doing you doing you you can't even like disagree with the monsters.

You don't even know what it's like they had like a mind of your own.

You know I mean whatever but make it easy.

And then from not having a father you ********** heavy.

In fact, they said I'm out.

You don't feel that cycle.

You don't feel that shame.

Yeah, like my ******* family.

I love my family that they would have walked in this home, he thought.

If you would have left.

Your kids, yes.

Just from.

I don't even say that **** out loud.

Yeah, oh I quit, oh it it?

I mean just little **** like that growing order and.

Not having your dad to tell you what went wrong, went with him and your mom and **** like that because that helps.

That helps.

Lot of people don't want to hear certain **** about their mind, but it helps.

Situation like situation like I just said with the the join of Attorney Jones.

Same thing so mom.

Help I mean yeah will take you cool the **** out being so 1 sided about it so it's just.

Just what I mean is that whole cycle and then you turn around and you pass that **** on.

It was a time where.

But with my dad, I never.

It didn't matter who my mom had around like I never.

Jumped out the jet.

All this my dad all this my dad Oh my God father love him to death but he's not my dad you know I mean and I never seen the old head in the street or guy in the street and say I wanna be like this thing it like this thing.

Is he doing this and that like yeah I mean then I had my pop tell me stories about.

Him being in the streets heat, he wasn't Pablo, and none of that he he tried it.

Something happened.

He came to that fork in the road where you gotta defend yourself and protect your turf.

He didn't want to do it.

He went on, got a job warehouse, moved like you said he was in Southwest.

We ended up all the way up in Frankfurt to the point where my mom was in Southwest.

And she moved to North to be closer to him.

So what you said might play a part in that.

But if he wasn't there and he didn't do that, I would still be down Southwest doing who knows what, yeah?

So just little **** like that, you know.

I mean, just having the influence, having a protection like I remember when my.

My bike got stolen in Frankfurt.

My pop came through here with that joint on his lap.

Just having that.

Yeah, I mean yeah if he wasn't around for that I would have.

I would have ended up putting the joint on my own lap and went to go for a bike at 16 'cause I don't know no better.

Yeah, for being a man and where I'm gonna end up.

I need my bike back at 16.

That's why I'm running around.

At 32 in state rule telling everybody why you in here he stole my Dino Nikki checking out.

AAA

My mom who's

Yeah you trippin.

I popped in my she was white and blue like you gotta be ******** yeah I mean so this little **** like that being able to.

Even seeing my mom and dad relationship fall apart.

Play a party.

Yes, it you know I'm saying yeah.

It's just certain **** you gotta see from you from your father's it ain't gonna hit the same seen it on TV seeing it on rappers sitting in the street you gotta see that **** and this book, male and female, because now I know women that from their father not being in a lie.

Safe.

They literally don't consider the father as important. He looked at. It is 7030 like you, not as important you can. You can pay and provide, but they gonna be with me most of the time and they posted live here, they don't. They don't. They never considered that they never what two parents raising a kid. Now we don't know bout. None of it like so.

It's really it.

Play a big part, more parts.

Do they give us credit for for?

Yeah.

I feel as though we're just.

I just think like the top of my list is.

No, no, my mom did a great job.

I am glad who I am today is only because of my wife.

But who I am with my kids is because my 'cause of my dad 'cause what he didn't do right.

So where were so?

I'll being left in the balance you see I'm saying, but what I think would have played a part of.

I feel as though.

I went into got in trouble as much like when you say being a man to a son and I'm just that's an adult telling the kids was right wrong.

Yeah.

I had nobody to know what's right and wrong.

My mom supporting everything I did.

But she told me I was wrong, but you know she told me not to do this, not to carry guns, but she not out there in the streets 'cause she don't know.

Yeah.

But if I had a father around saying little bro it at any point.

Your home is your home you they they gonna be on your porch, right?

You know that outside you know I pray you know.

My my circle is small now, but back then.

But honey is, you know, I mean.

It is, but you couldn't tell me that you know you could tell me they wasn't.

Let me.

Lovedale, it's one of them, yeah.

Yeah, you couldn't tell me that.

If I would have somebody like you you drawing or when I got a line hit my chin real quick, let me think about it.

There was times where I sneak out the house.

Damn anything.

Thank you.

Could just ask him I know what is big.

Hear.

Me out this time though, you know I snuck out the house.

Specially not like in the high.

School days it was.

My mom did best again, but if I wanted to do something, I'm gonna do that.

You know, I mean, you just you know what, I'm what I'm doing now is my son is at 11 to this day like I don't have to show him and tell him what to do.

All he do, he watching he watching will deny that I know.

I have nobody to tell me.

You know what's supposed to do what you're doing.

The only reason why I got a job was.

Because you know brother was in jail and now you want to sell drugs when he wasn't there?

Yeah, I mean, that's that's an I wanted things.

I wanted a cell phone that was the first thing I wanted money for.

Now I'll I'll double the second thing.

The first thing I just wanted some gum.

Roche, it was the first.

That's another topic because.

It yeah, you mean there.

That was the first thing.

I didn't have exposable to, you know.

Going to high school and got no money out the vending machine you go.

I I had this to lunch at that it was.

Said no, that was like a thing like, uh, freebies like something was embarrassed to get that I wasn't.

No DNA, yeah.

DNA, yeah.

I wasn't a bear, so I was out.

Well, our school wasn't well a frame for a boyfriend.

You would not know we used to trade them Jones off.

The Ojo nega

You ever see me either lunch?

Oh, as long as we've been at school.

Don't say we I was above it.

I mean, that's probably me.

Look at I did, you know?

I was above it.

So it is we should we should think on it.

No, let me stop Flash.

Take on it.

Well, what they grew up in a house with both my parents.

I know, know, know, know, know, know like which is yeah.

Yeah, so it just you could actually.

Like it, but it is so so.

So basically I feel like.

For a boy.

But no, no.

I'm sorry, I asked you this question, how do you think life would have been different for you 'cause you wanted to feel how you think life would have been different for you if your part wasn't there?

And you're not the piggy backed look like he taught you something no one ever gives you like my daddy teach me damn face so so.

Yeah.

So so so let's.

So let's say you teach me **** nothing.

All he told me was nothing.

Vitez nickel worth.

So I could I got, I could tell you this because because it wasn't like 'cause I got.

Yeah.

I got brothers that don't know how to do the business so it wasn't like he taught the door was there.

You know I'm saying I just was like that's like we like you said you got somebody to look up to my pop that man.

So it's like why would I?

That's why I don't.

I don't say I have old heads because how you gonna be my old head when everything you learned was from my dad so I'm gonna go straight to the source.

That's my old head you know.

I mean when I was younger I used to think since he was older like he was weird and all that I honestly wish right now.

The relationship we had back then I could have as a man he got.

I'm saying, 'cause I want, yeah all timers.

Probably this probably was like 4 years ago.

Going through it with my baby my he asked.

He said how the kids.

I'm like, Dad, I want.

I ain't saying I needed it in Montreal.

Timers like he had his mind.

He talking about rabbits bouncing on clouds and ship he was.

I.

Long as you take care of my son, it's important that she admits something like.

I don't know if he knew what he said, but it just was like damn like even in your all time.

Are you giving me game and I just after that I'm like damn I wish he was like fully functional where I could get that game from you know I mean but it was like coming up.

Yeah, I remember when I used to be with Charlie.

I never, I yeah, but I damn what's up.

Mr Ben, y'all.

Everybody like my pot even chicks I dealt with back then he loved my pop.

But I didn't see it.

'cause I used to feel like that I didn't include in my baseball game.

Staying kind of my football game, but he was at work.

That's why I feel the way I feel when I tell you about the working situation.

That small **** like he was always there.

We always like.

I just told you need lunches.

We always we didn't want for nothing.

We always had a lunch money.

We always had language.

All that **** We always had cars but the one thing that I wanted he could have kept all that.

I just wanted them to come to my game 'cause it was like when it comes to baseball.

Everybody telling me how good he was in baseball, just go to the games with him.

That's all I wanted to do.

That's why I love the sports.

I love fishing 'cause that's what he did.

You get up there so it could go both ways.

In it.

Like you said, some people that didn't have a pop.

I had my pop but that it was just fine.

Now I'm gonna say it was just like I can't say that I don't want this lightning that my dad did but it was more financial like I remember when I got a basketball.

We have another project so my my dad let's go let's go play basketball he wants to and I found myself doing that **** Now I gotta catch myself like my daughter would be like Daddy let's play.

And I'm like I'm watching something on YouTube.

I'm like, no, you're not right now and I catch myself like no 'cause I know this is what I did with my dad and I know how it felt.

Just a little small.

Second, it means something, you know I mean so I get that now far as with a woman like as far as a girl or that I feel like that's where you get women accepting anything with Nick is through Nick is treating him like ****

Naked chicks accept anything 'cause they don't know and they just feel like it's whatever and they looking for their daddy figure.

They looking for a daddy figure they didn't have and that's one thing I I always make sure, like I told my daughter the other day.

Right?

I joke with her but he's always you like you're Nega.

Yeah I love my nicking but she was like I mean like I said so you're not lonely.

I sent you a Princess so she went to school that whole ******* week.

I'm a Princess my dad he said I'm a president that shitman everything though there like I made her day like I'm Superman, right?

Yes.

My my other daughter Mulan.

I said I said I said me, who am I?

She said you Superman you.

I felt great though like that **** was the best I I could be a piece of **** that anybody in the world but.

That shipment everything and as crazy as this sounds, you all know how I feel.

I love all four of my kids.

It meant more coming from my daughter still my sons.

Yeah me some.

Because it's like 'cause I always tell.

This plane is flying.

I always tell all my kids.

I would like you like at the end of the day I'm a man.

I'm always be good your mom need you more than me.

I will never turn.

You'll get your mom no matter what made her go through you won't see it on my end I'm not going to tell you nothing bad about your Microsoft, your mom.

It's up to y'all.

When y'all get older if you will see it.

If you never don't.

I'm not wishing you all to see it.

I don't I hope.

I don't, but it's just as a man.

I don't, and I feel like with my boys it's not.

I'm not saying it's the best way.

I raised my boys to be worried.

It's like I want them to be strong.

I don't.

Yeah I kissed my boy I gave him a hug and I tell him I love him all the time 'cause I don't.

I can't tell you 10 times.

My dad told me you love me.

I knew he did but I don't remember him ever telling me love me.

And I think even to this day my girl tell you my girl but like I love you I start laughing high.

Yeah.

But I told my daughter all the time and she's like damn you act like it hurt to say I love you.

It's not that I wasn't taught to show affection not affection but emotions like I.

Show affect somebody emotions it pop in jail right?

Oh no.

What was it like growing up when he knowing that with him in jail though?

It was more so like I didn't understand it when you young explained.

Explain the whole situation member, yeah?

It was like this was like oh he he got locked up.

Maybe when I was like 9 or 10 but him and my mom split when we was like 7 or 8.

So like before that the 19 years.

Oh, they remember who did something. Alright alright, I'm gonna sit right up until I was 7/8.

Like you said, you got somebody.

You look up to.

This is somebody that you feel as though.

And yeah has he can't do no wrong like that's my Superman my superhero that's my like the person I look up to and one thing my mom always smiling love.

He was always a great provider.

That's the one thing you can't take away from me.

Like Stemmy, even my family and friends.

That's like you know, around that age.

Always tell the stories of how.

Christmas was always like how you seeing movies I I grew up with Christmas and we walk in. It wasn't 4-5 gifts under the tree. It might be.

Like one side 1/2 of the room is toys, other hashes clothes. So it was like growing up. It was like all right.

Yeah close Yep.

Life was like alright it was.

It was you got that structure you got that founded.

And then with my mom split.

This is when I at the time you know you young young realize it, but the bitter side to the men we know when the woman is better is if you don't want to be with me.

You don't wanna be with your kids, but for the men is if I can't be with you then ******* kids like I'm only accepting my kids if you accept me so.

In that regards, he just was like I'm going, you don't wanna be with me.

Well then I'm out and I'm not taking care of you or them.

Kids ain't doing nothing for none of them.

So for me growing up it was just like that's like a heartbreak 'cause this is I mean yeah eyes you look in there like damn why this person don't want me?

Why you started looking at yourself like?

Yeah.

Ignore uniform.

What the **** did I had?

Yeah, so you said.

To do with that, so you start looking at your mom like.

Or is it something that I did?

Yeah, I mean we not being good enough for school.

And I mean I know sometimes it's cool.

You know you act out sometimes I gotta couple beings but like damn for the most part my grades was good.

So it was like.

Yeah.

Elaborate on that, 'cause that's one thing I'm not saying I'm against.

I never understood like I never got it when.

Kids take that burden or like.

'cause you don't know, you don't.

Just 'cause, it's the unknown you don't know the answers.

So when you trying to you trying to figure something out, you just coming up with different theories and.

So now what did your mom take it?

That's that's the part 'cause like I get where you coming from as a child, you don't know it.

No, it was something like no and it was something that I never.

But

I was too young.

This press that.

Or no, no I.

I get it 'cause like that's why I said I never understood it because it's like I'm big on communication.

Even with kids.

It's just like you supposed to reassure.

Not saying, I'm I'm doing, I'm just saying for like this one.

I get it.

I get as a kid.

You like 'cause I'm watching.

What was that?

It's some movie I'm watching now so show it was submitted that they kept saying like they was the ones responsible.

But it's like as an adult as the other parent.

You gotta let them with you.

It wasn't.

You yeah and then I also looked at my mom right then, what did you do?

But the same time I remember she was going through domestic violence.

Uh huh.

I witnessed it a few times, it be times where I will tell you, yeah.

He put his hands on and jumping.

Of course, I mean as I got older.

After he came home, he tried to reach back out and then just like Nah.

You only want, but what was so alright so?

Yeah.

What was what was it like while he was in jail?

Not having your.

Father, actually I couldn't tell because.

Yeah.

Well, I witnessed this with my also with my own my best friend, my childhood best friend.

You rarely see this, but his pop got sent up to 15 his uncle step.

Then the mom brother stepped in and just was like I'm the dad now and that's when I learned not looking back I learned that this between the dad and the father.

The dad is the one that make you the father is on raise.

You know some.

In cases you Basel files.

It can be both.

Yeah.

But you know, sometimes we come up your biological father just today just basically just to postpone doing it.

But it's always another man that raised you.

So coming up, it was my uncle, my mom, older.

Brother

Basically was like the father figure. My mom had little boyfriends and **** They always cornea, but already he was corny as Nick is, but.

Nothing.

He was like depression and aslinger.

It's yeah.

Special and they go here.

I mean we will get into that, but is my uncle was like the blueprint he showed me.

When you make how light can turn off, will you make the right to?

Business.

So it's like I he came up in the projects they both came up in the projects.

His approach to life was always different.

It wasn't followed in or more do with their bio still.

So from the beginning it was like I'm not going to Germantown.

I'm going to central, but the central that led him to get a scholarship in basketball and from there it was like a basketball workout was his average.

Eric.

Uh in college he.

Well, yeah.

Was he was he anything like you at?

The.

You know he's way better though.

Yeah, I give it to he was he was that he was that like before he went to the.

And why is it that?

And why is it?

Is it was Philadelphia University started?

I was text how it transferred over to Phillip University.

Now Jefferson board it now with Thomas Jefferson University over there on Henriad.

Yeah, I'm really pass and I don't know that was a college I should use it.

Yeah, they they boarded.

They board that and.

They, uh, another narrative off this topic that that people need to stop.

Just 'cause you're not together.

It's a such thing as Co parenting in the spouses like that **** burns me up like if.

A man and a girl don't workout and then they both married separate.

I started, I'm looking at it as now the child got four parents is a competition.

Oh the oven again today or the other the change your mom, she's not, but it's a mom figure in a dad figure that the child could benefit from if they saying 2 positive relationships that could benefit 'cause it takes a village to raise a child.

People always right off the bat want dysfunction.

That **** is corny to me.

We gotta stop that.

A guy from.

The one I used to be Australian all the time. White boy. He broke it down. He was like yeah he was like I just got off the phone with my my ex wife's husband. He was calling me about the kids. I thought that it was so do at a young age. I said that is mean that you can have that relationship 'cause all the main common goal is these kids. That's all it should be about. Wanna start fighting and all that you're.

Yeah.

Not seeing what is going to the kids.

One thing you gotta take into consideration is fillans.

Yeah, betterness.

Yeah.

Bitterness is, but.

Like when the breakup or the split is not mutual is going to be that like I said, if you all.

Wolf

Like you know, agree to part ways y'all understand all right wing for each other.

No hard feelings.

The love we had over the X amount of years or months.

It didn't work out.

No hard week.

It's easy to Co parent with somebody, not better, that's.

Where same conversation we had with emotions in business is not raising.

Yeah.

Your child is not a business, but it's.

It's more important than a business.

You gotta pay attention to the side being adult and harvest.

Even I'm saying that's what I'm saying, I get emotional but you gotta heart is about the child and then.

Today people never.

But with some power, many fillings is kinda hard to.

Yeah, I remember.

I remember I was just thinking about this the other day, right?

I remember I was going through it about the kids with the Child Support in the family.

I hate that building but I I had the wrong book.

I couldn't give up.

Like I said my family would disown me and **** Yeah an she was having her way like I mean getting what she was getting.

I'm losing because I'm giving up that and giving up.

To the lawyer.

The rumble.

Just for my days I'm barely getting my days and my mom was my yummy but she.

Also neutral.

But I'll be like Mom seen bring the kids today.

Alright cool, we get him next week, Mom.

They took this on my check.

Alright?

You talked to the kid and this was over and over and over again and I'm tipping the **** out to one day.

I said you know who size you want?

She said to me I'm on the kids side with Arjun.

Let it go.

Everything had today whatever whatever.

However it played out.

I stop, I stop.

I let that go, that that bitter **** like you.

I mean because my whole thing was.

I feel like I'm supposed to be down there, but it's still happening, so it's like OK, you feel like you're not supposed to be down there, but you are down there.

Yes.

Now what still you can't give up?

And you can't have such a way.

So you gotta see this **** through.

I mean so it once I stopped running and stop fighting, I'm all the way out of that **** like to this day.

Like you know what I was talking about earlier that I didn't do, and I still won't.

This is me that goes with the motion and not being adult.

I talk to my kids when it's my time to get him right, but I see a lot of people they'll put their differences to the side like I just said to talk to them, but it's like my situation.

You know it's it's hard and like I'm not there mentally it ain't no it ain't no relationship or nothing.

Yeah, yeah.

I just tried it we just came off a step where I tried it.

An insight is never enough, so it's like now what do you want me to do to you? Trying to tap into my sanity? I'm at a happy space, I'm cool, I just gonna ignore it. I'm not gonna let you get to me. I can't say I'm cool they 68. They know who I am they'll see it in the long run. If they don't they just don't. I don't care but I can't keep that whole time without. Florida was stressing me out.

When he's on vacation now, we had that talk.

That **** was, I wish it would eat me alive black you call me when I'm on my way to the airport with the dumps it and I'm asking you comedy.

What is it that you want me to do?

I'm not being smart.

What is it that you want me to do?

You asking for something that's on but I gotta I gotta quit my job I gotta quit my job to sit with them for learning that.

Sign it sign unsteady on the other side.

But you're not talking about taking the Child Support off an I got another baby with bills at the House now in that apartment or house is just don't make sense, I said.

What is it?

All you gotta do more, you gotta do more.

I'm just saying you guys do more well until you figured the **** out get off my phone and I still with the bigger person that next morning you I texted you.

Facebook.

EG a jungle green.

Yo call me when you get home don't go green I'm on your phone, baby Bay FaceTime, Bang Bang bang she's going straight to voicemail then I'm supposed to come back Thursday.

I still don't get no call week, so I might I'm not going back just to be sorry, 'cause now I'm really being my back so I missed out Florida style.

Florida Friday come I'm out Daytona. I get a text at 66605. I've been here since 5:50 I'm leaving or you wanna play these games I I know the game I screenshot boom I've been.

Texting you all.

Week you got I'm saying Oh no no, no, no it's no worries you gotta quarantine for two weeks but I had the kids while you was waiting on your coronavirus results.

I had the kids, but now I gotta quaranti So what games as we planned the last we got text you can I get the kids know they got appointment alright we playing these games that shirt but it's like it's a cycle.

What I don't understand in this whole situation is that.

Do you not realize you hurting the kids?

We decide when it's on, when it's on the phone, these five girls.

Well, that's what.

You want, yeah, it's like it's like what you doing to get back at me.

You like hitting me you hitting the kids yeah every shot you throw at her or every shot she threw at him.

It's hitting the kid.

That's why I had to start.

If it was a loss, it was a loss.

Well, yeah and it just like I feel with E coming from 'cause it be like I want my kids I wanna do for my kids.

But if you plan to keep away.

In

How do you get over that?

How do you just?

I told you detach yourself.

The never give up.

I know, I know how to do it.

No, I'm not.

I know I told you I.

I don't never.

Even no, no.

Mean we don't ever go man.

I will never give up.

Never.

Had plenty of talks with him talking him off the ledge is wrong.

That's almost exactly is wrong.

Is dead wrong, yeah?

Totally off the week, troublesome.

Never mind, never give up.

Yeah, I didn't talk him off the ledge a few times where he just said the point where it's just like my ******* kids.

Yeah.

I'm like you 'cause at the end of the day, you know how life won't be just with her.

You raising you, setting your kids up to be the next.

But

The part the part, but not this the part that hurts the most.

The same struggle we came within.

Is this what I think people don't get.

Me.

I have two boys that six and seven.

I see football, basketball.

These like it's supposed to be great.

They got it.

You could speak on it King.

He got it.

You know what I'm saying?

I'm playing football winning baseball.

They got it.

But it's like I can't get him in a bag because it's like soon as I get him on a routine.

You snatching it from abundant for what?

For them to call and it is locked up that they come on my other debt.

Now I sound like a hater 'cause I'm like.

Oh no, that's just your mom for no do we not doing that, but it's cool 'cause that is what they are.

You got them calling me.

Eric de Silva, Eric, but you calling this thing you know?

I mean is where ship but but that's just bitterness.

When you get older they're gonna see it.

I'm not even that they should get to me no more.

I don't even get mad.

It is what it is.

But the ship that do hurt is that you sent him with the intentions that.

Oh, Daddy won't get it.

So when Daddy don't get it they get mad.

Oh well, you said you were gonna do you say that yo this ain't that type of relation to call your dad?

Tell him you got a good report card.

That's the only job you got in life to do good.

To any of my kids, the only job you got in life is to do good in school.

You are.

I'm already raised you to be good.

A good person.

Just do good at school.

That's your only job and you could get.

Whatever the **** do you want from me?

Yeah, I seen something, uh, but you know, Will Smith and Jada got that red table talk and he said on there he was going through this.

Great thanks.

With the divorce with the older son and he studied, I forgot.

He says he called his dad but he can't see going back and forth going back and forth and back and forth light while we're going through this, why are we going through these ups and downs and the dad just kept telling him game?

He said the best advice is that given was like.

I don't.

I'm not telling you to give up, but stop fighting.

Eventually he had come for you.

And at that age, I think his son maybe was like maybe two or three, but when he turned 12, I want my dad and at this point you old enough to know.

All right now it ain't that is Mommy you stopping me from saying yeah, 'cause now you know where his type of lifestyle he was able to be flexible yo now his son calling I want you I want you now the mom you can't really just the child old enough to see it like I even said first hand with my lady her son 13 now he see it now.

She played the role of.

I'm not going bashing, but I'm gonna just sit back.

I'm gonna give him rope to hang yourself so when he called say I'm coming to get him and I know he's not gonna make his bag up.

Then when you get the text.

So yeah, I can't make it.

Now are you see it ain't me stopping you, I'm not I'm not the one that's so you will see over time so it's like the piggy back we said right now they might be too young to understand that it's hard.

But overtime this in you call and they call and say Dad I want you come get me alright not today I'm working but tomorrow and for the rest of the week I got you because you can't state that's when they're set to see it ain't you?

It never was you.

That's that's the nutty sheet that I go to is not cold.

Yeah.

I can't even get the calling because if I call is you there.

You know I'm saying, you know the little state.

She just went through.

I was getting him on how they all that it was just because it was the holiday she wanted me to give him a gift 'cause she couldn't get it.

That's all it was.

A birthday coming up watch is going to be.

You want him again?

Yes I want him.

Anyway, I'm still not going to.

Yes, I want him, but that's just another ship 'cause I can't call.

My call is.

If they tell you that what you did at school, so he could say Daddy, can you get me that he's a window on this like my the love is unconditional like I shouldn't just be about what I can get for you reducing I don't ask her that **** that **** corny though I.

This will be OK.

Hate that, but it's just the to get back to the original.

Question not having a father, just there's no structure.

And I believe oh boundaries, yeah, I believe from watching my own could do it.

That's where you get your confidence from.

Yeah, your dad, you don't wanna tell AJ you can do this when he think he can.

Everything he feels that he can't do he looked for you for validation.

And when you give it to him, that as a you may not, he may not understand it, but without even knowing you building that ending like alright, I know if I go to my dad and that the wild side to build like then I could do it.

I know I got.

But it isn't because you know you know somebody tell you you can do something right if you hand it from XY and Z is like high school like.

Alright, fine like what you were saying.

Your mom said you don't do this at a third.

Yeah, you hear it.

But when your dad tell you it, that's that's your guy.

Yeah, that's strong.

Not even gonna be physically strong, but just that.

Physical not like like far as like muscles in them but just that presence is strong.

It is, yeah.

Yeah, it's the voice.

We're just like yeah like you.

Know here that's all, but I had failed my mom but.

Yeah.

It got to age where is even now.

This is enough.

This enough.

You look at your situation, right?

Diamond can tell AJ you can do it.

He, like I was cool.

I believe it.

But when my dad said like it was something that was.

Maybe she will say like that, yeah?

Yeah, 'cause it's like oh.

When we was at the funeral.

It was something at home.

The that she said was.

Every time Joe hey get sneakers and saying he height 'cause it's like my dad board Oh yeah I mean it it ain't even boat Woody board.

Yeah.

How much he paid for just the principle that came from my dad.

Port came from Hell came as well, right?

And he and he set that standard 'cause we got.

We gotta make that clear.

It's a lot of dads.

Does deer does not.

As that you don't look to them like that.

No.

You don't look to them like that, that's one.

And that's one thing I bad with because it's like damn is is the same what you were saying is I'm trying to find that balance that I want to provide but the same.

Some Tom is more important, you know, holding them, shaping their character money can't do that.

Money is.

There was a reason that are you go to this school or I'm able to pay for the pop Warner equipment.

I'm able to keep a roof over your head, get you toys and stuff by the end of the day they sure sure.

Head straight all that **** to spend the day with you.

They they character.

It's some of the tub said they hit me.

It was East pick.

You said earlier he's like who's in the car he like yeah he said you want me to pick him up like that like he just I just want you to pick me up.

And it's like that they'll be like there.

It be like that hurt, yeah?

'cause I tried saying it was too late, that's why I'm saying like I started to grind.

And it it.

And it.

Too late, that's why I was saying.

To me is number 2.

I mean alright look this, this was the structure that I got.

It was gonna say career first child second.

So get your bag 1st and make sure your fears in order.

So when you have your child everything is already covered you you you don't gotta scramble for money 'cause it's there already or yeah.

You you.

You got not.

It's not even just about money.

It just is structured in your life.

You and your lady on the same page.

Each your got some type of routine to Piper schedule Jimmy stressing.

It does without what I did you.

Yeah you be stressing so once you've got that you like I said for me I want more, but even if you whatever you I don't want to talk down on nobody wherever you live at where you live at.

But as long as you got structure.

With the whole household, and that's what.

And then in their household is it Carrie Fisher?

I was gonna say yeah.

Little, even if you surround it with this is you know that takes a.

Function that tone you know what you know what another thing.

It's on, yeah.

Having a father like handicap me from you.

So you keep saying your uncle.

I just thought about it with my uncle earlier.

My cousin I dropped off these two like metal figures that was in my life and my brothers is men like they were there was older.

My dad was so much of a dominant force.

I didn't look at them the way most people like you know what I'm saying.

Like my Uncle Tyrone and my cousin.

I lay, my cousin Ali was always there, always there.

But keeper LV is typically like that.

No, that's why I'm saying.

But it was always there but I just looked at them as family members.

I didn't look at them as oh that's my uncle.

He did this now that I don't have my dad.

When I went down Florida and I left with you, I went and rekindled my my cousin Ali.

I see in my years and it's like damn like y'all raised me and my my uncle told me Saturday when I seen him.

He was like how the kids are they good God.

I commend you. I said for what he was like. You went through all that stuff that she puts you doing. You still was there. He said he was raised right? And I'm like y'all did that y'all was the ones that and I I never realized always kept thinking it was just my dad it was it was all the metal figures in my even my Big Brother AJ. He ain't even that much older than me 3233.

Great brother jamar.

I was on the phone with him the other day busting it up but I might.

They are now.

I will call them my old heads.

I'm not sad or not even say oh here's I'm gonna say oh Gee.

I will consider emojis 'cause they give me game me and you ain't that much older but true in the category I feel like with tomorrow I always told you that I looked I.

I remember that's how.

The podcast started this reason I started my grind I.

What I will talk to you?

Remember them, uh, December those days.

Seriously, and that's that's, that's that's what I told you.

I said that's for starting my ground.

Remember on Friday.

I'm like yo we gotta get back to that, you know, because you believe it or not, your voice matters.

Yeah, your voice matters like.

I ain't got a lot growing up that was like my flight.

Some of my volley.

Nation and with the press these Diaries we was looking at you.

There.

You gotta think about it the same way and I'm not a person to discuss.

You know you ain't fair, but it's.

Like wise fly.

You know how you know how we had it, but it you know we had a bunch of guys that was under us that looked to me for validation.

That's how you was for autumn.

They all of this even and even ask.

I don't think you realize that less coming up.

I alright so one day I was walking on the edge right.

I realized it because.

The memories going through it with the prizes right? And I'm walking on the edge by myself. 100 of them knickers. But they was 10 and it was on their way to the terminal. Do you think it followed me all the way to the crib?

I turned my back and somebody said no, I'm not home he with us.

He walked so.

Yeah, I think the right foot holding this little.

Boy, I tell you that yeah Nick is new.

It's all about.

I mean, this was just.

That's it's a good job this.

Is you know that's that's like basically would come down to like just without their father is no structure is no.

Is is none of that.

We write him we right, but.

There is none of that, so it was like a is without having their father.

Look at the next one.

There's no structure is no validation is no.

Like you said, your dad and still that's where you really get tomorrow's from until you get your character from oh.

****

1st.

My party.

Introduced me to a certain video games.

You mean **** like that?

But that's where.

Could have been outside know that they hated not just the yeah exactly.

So I actually this now, right?

Yeah, actually this now right with now the Char fathers.

What do you see?

Like all right?

Do you see the right and wrong from the past?

As far as my father meeting up as a father?

Yeah, I know everybody like just I started with you.

Only to people as my family members before me.

Yeah, like alright today he was like alright.

I understand why he told me this and now alright I don't agree with that.

Play, oh, when you look at your kids, what do you look into cistone?

All right, so let's start there.

So with with my father, I don't think we never was.

And still something he he know how to box.

But we know how to box a little bit like you know how to defend ourself.

Right?

Uh he played ball we know how to play ball a little bit my pop in the cars we enter cars but if something two or three things go wrong with this *********** we don't have to call him 'cause we was only into it a little bit.

Something that he never did because he was grinding and working.

He never said no come here and do this right.

It was never in my pop work that *******

In Red Lobster for like 20 years we not I'm not, I'm just not.

Yeah, he said happy birthday to me a couple of times.

Look at that.

Yeah, I mean Mommy got his cooking cooking lessons in French bread.

So, so he never.

So he never.

I'm not knocking him for, but he never liked and still something the way with the construction ship.

You got that **** yeah, I mean we seen Shitan learn **** what mean?

I think that's a that's a reason why me and colleague totally night and day you know.

I mean we had one with this way one with that.

Yeah.

Well he never.

And still did.

But when he when he did do.

And I love you, for it is that.

**** this street **** he down talk that she still do.

I ain't get here from Brendan Streets I I went here from working we see the word that was something he did he we seen him work we see him go get it he still out there getting it but I would.

Uh huh.

When I was with you when we was running around rapping and all that **** doing all that **** running around.

I should have been with my pop learning how to fix cars and learning how to box and all that **** I've seen it in court onto it and know, you know, I'm saying.

Launched by.

But that's a growth like how we just say it, right, right?

That's a growth with him.

'cause, you know, I, when I was fixing his house, he was telling me he take your little brother everywhere with him.

So as a man he growth here.

Right, getting the right now, yeah.

Oh yeah, so.

Yeah yeah, yeah and.

And.

It was like now with two kids with the.

So also with my kids.

I think I want to wait and to see what they're into first.

Corey got a she do the little YouTube channel.

What's the one that draw?

Bro and dance so she got what I got.

Hey.

As far as writing and art, this is art because everything we say and I could write this **** down.

Uh huh.

Huh?

That's how it started.

So I see that so now it's like are we pushing that way?

I'm waiting for Isaiah and Corey and late in time to see I want to see what they want to do 1st instead of just saying oh play football, play basketball, cook, no, what do you want to do?

And now that I see that I'm never gonna let that.

Dreamed I, you know, I mean like I was telling you the other day, the dream I had about my own group.

He the dream was that he had got out of jail, but he was walking up and he hugged me.

He was basically saying, like I see you.

I see you doing your thing.

But in my head, I think so ******* much that even in my dream, I say, oh, you're not in jail.

You did and I woke up.

And I googled it.

And it you dream about somebody that used to support you when you when you grow in it and you're doing good at whatever you doing.

I mean so **** like that.

Right?

So I know that Curry.

So I got one.

I know Corey is the she's going to be artsy.

She's going to draw, she's gonna dance she she doing spoken word and she like that.

So now I know where she was she going to be I know.

If I'm watching something, you look at the.

Yes.

Or if I'm out something to see a easel or some crayons or someshit grabby, she should use these.

Isaiah he in the games, but that's that's universal.

Yeah, yeah.

They all gonna be in games.

I'm waiting for him to separate you and pick his Lane.

Big blended.

So once he pick his Lane I'm gonna instill everything I know she running it.

She got a YouTube page she wanted you to pay.

She's drawn.

And me and shine on the same page because I thought she traced that **** I was hating.

At first she drew this.

Now she drew she.

She do that.

So it's like all right.

But this one going this way and now you just wait to see what the rest of them go.

So just just install me.

Emotional installment yeah I mean.

Yeah, but as far as like I'm talking like the intangibles like your character like alright growing like right now as your kids growing.

Do you see anything that you don't like like I I maybe I.

Need to and this is something I'm probably overreacting with because my sister passed away.

I don't play the the argument and fight and then being smart with each other.

**** yeah, I'm with you, especially not when.

Which is.

Because this was something McCauley used to do, being him are gonna fight, but then Eric could come over and they could be the best of friends.

A child would come over me and tell but we get along with fighting argue at all.

Stop with that.

Yeah, I cut that short even at a young age.

You cut cut that up all over even with Cali kids when they aren't, you cut that up.

I don't play that argument.

Because I could be in another room here that she probably won't even be that serious but cut it out.

You know, I mean so just little **** like that, right?

Child for you like we should goes for like like learning from would you know?

I mean whatever you learned from not having a father which you're scared but well.

But I I will like.

I feel the effects were like I was saying like I did I didn't grow up with nothing so I tried to give my kids everything.

Huh?

Only way you can give your kids everything.

You gotta go get it.

And I missed a little things like I was telling him, like my son just wanted to pick him up.

So now I'm realizing I was so focused on giving my kids things that I didn't have.

They don't have.

They don't.

I'm missing the little things that they care about.

I just tried to I I just don't.

You know all yeah it is.

I said a hard balance.

This.

That's how many like I said.

'cause once you realize it, you so it's to me 'cause if you don't got it you going through it.

Happy.

But if you go out and get it they going through it because you're not there that it's a hard balance so.

The night, yeah, so you don't say but you know that's why that's why I think it's it's good to be in a relationship because you need that rock like what your girl said.

That should speak volumes to this day.

Which is.

Well, say spend some games.

Let me, she said, shut up Dizzy Master.

He said, yeah, you do, you get?

Big day.

A head of the household, but I'm the net.

That's crazy.

I meant though yo, you just don't understand that Oh yeah man, what can you really do without that support?

Little boy, yo

Hear me like that **** you know she said that the home is home, yeah.

The woman is the woman round harder than him.

And I understand where she was coming from.

My what I heard was probably not what she meant, but I heard something that she spoke volumes to.

Me it's funny 'cause this week I've been doing it with my sister so much. I still a card not ask ***** they trust in the car but we met her was talking remember when you called me the other day I was talking and she was like.

Yes.

I like her like everybody.

Things equally they don't understand like he got a lot of good qualities or traits and she speak game she just and she act like me, yeah and I'd like to think that's why I said I like about your girl 'cause she wrote Mommy.

Yeah, yeah.

Hi, Z is like you could be you around her.

Remember when y'all came up and you got mad 'cause we was talking and we were talking about.

Laughing all the time.

X is another **** yeah, and she just was like.

Oh, so that's what you used it, though she didn't care 'cause she know me.

I put it on the table.

Yeah yeah, but me, I just try to teach my kids like my son.

Just don't give up.

You know my daughter.

She wild card.

She just got so much got damn into she.

That's true.

Who the trip tell about the trip?

I do it man.

She gets got so much energy.

She's so tiny up.

Yeah, and she will grow. Says she's 43 pounds. How you 8 years old you 43.

Inside the ship.

Japanese lady ****

Yeah bro.

So this seems like a good idea.

I just, you know, just my son.

Just you know, try to store them.

Yeah.

Just don't take the easy way out.

'cause with all this social media and go on your phone, that's one thing I wish I didn't do so early.

I gave them phones and it's so hard to take it up.

Take it back.

I mean, I mean is that bad, yeah?

They need different like thing this.

In my opinion, even like, for instance, my daughter, she's a.

She's learning to go to school.

You know?

You know what the early stage they teach you, how to find out the problem.

Right now all you gotta do is, hey, Siri.

What's 4 + 4?

Yeah, that is yeah.

Yeah, I mean sorry taking it away from.

Oh

Ha.

Yo yo dismissed it, yo yo this that.

You know that it should be, oh.

Yeah, that's the only face.

Instead, you know that that is, yeah.

Like you mean, it takes that away from it.

It takes that away.

You know what I mean, but it's the only reason why I want my daughter anyway.

We need some type of communication with them, specially not in school.

With this community is not.

I need to be able to reach anything happen.

I don't want them to call me.

Yeah.

Yeah, I want you all that you know I.

Mean you know?

But you guys even picking up what you just saying.

That kind of makes us lazy 'cause growing up.

How would your mom reach you?

When we was in elementary, how would you?

No.

Get rich now.

Let's say I say this **** all the time.

I know you have you ever be acting up at school in your, in your pocket, or?

Yeah, so I say that.

Your mom at the door they.

Quiet it.

I say this all the time.

Jokingly, Sonny Cher before cell phones without it was like, uh, a mysterious like I can't explain it like, alright?

My dad, my dad did construction.

Uh huh.

Any day, anytime of the day, my mom will pull up right where he was at.

How like sit back and think about it like when we were going so we wanna go swimming in the food we will go swimming right?

You don't wanna **** if this were for the ad.

Was she gonna act the fool?

But when you're doing construction there's no set job that you want like he might be here today and my dad was heavy on collecting demo payments.

He could like break down payments that we get.

That was how the bills got paid.

They have finished the job the next week.

That's how it was, but it's like.

We'll go swimming.

And shell Paula.

But he right there working and I'm like that's another **** That's another job for another show that type of trust is not here today like it now my phone is doing a whole list it on the phone.

Location Girl just asked me that the other day I met you.

My God, yeah.

I will never check your location.

I will never check your location if you tell me where you are, I trust you.

But not.

If you're not there, I'll find out and it's over.

That's what my.

Focus don't leave that room.

For like yeah, but the the get back on we talk about.

I'm.

You know your take on it.

I'm doing wrong, what I thought.

No, no, no.

What you feel as though as a parent when I yeah you wanna still into your.

Do you still?

Kids and still right.

Install it.

It.

Like you know that Lady character.

And I want I want him to have ambition.

I want him to be strong.

I want him to stand for something.

Yeah, I want him to have morals principles.

And don't settle.

That's my biggest thing like don't settle I I always and I live off that's why I was saying even with my dad I think I'm the way I am because even at school you go voucher.

That's when the teachers would be like about college and **** I'm like I'm gonna have my own business always didn't even me working today.

I'm going to have my own.

No disrespect to nobody.

I work for nothing, but my goal was always to have my own **** and I'ma get it somehow someway.

I'm never settled with just being the norm, 'cause that's when you get content, but I just want my kids to feel that way.

I want them to just have like that and power with.

I want them to walk around with uh or basically when you see him you just like it was, just something about them.

It's not about them that they just got it like I just want them to.

Have that **** they like for me is is more so like trying to find that balance like how do you instill that into them.

Yeah, because you got that outside influence as well.

You gotta see.

They gonna make the industry.

You think he thinking one way but.

This whole plan you got?

It's come naturally.

For mercy.

Yeah, that shake the child being born is just gone.

It's gonna hit you.

Yeah, come listen.

But one thing I do on my child with all of them when they was born is that I put my hand my finger out and he grabbed my hand and whatever ******* playing Oh my head is set all that I just want to I just want to hold you like all that sugar was.

Yeah, I mean.

Yeah, on another day I never understood one like my dad.

You gonna put that **** away, right?

My dad used to actually sit there and tell it like talk to me like This is why people do this that you don't realize.

That should stand with them kids.

So when my kids were younger I never did that to him like I didn't talk to him 'cause I felt like they ain't listening.

But when I started thinking about it, I talked like I speak game.

All day is going to set.

With him yeah he yeah.

With.

It's funny you say that self AJ all the time on the phone with my brother. I'm on my brother and my dad. My brother always say Benny always taught me to do's in adults in the world in the world.

Yes also.

He said it's two kind of men's men that run the house and then they run around the house. You know it just little **** like that and make it fly, but it's like they sit with you. They they live lessons like my dad always told me something I said told my kids I'm a man. I'm always be good. Worry about chick kids that's why I said because I think that's what he stood on you know I mean, there's.

Burn the house.

Burn.

Little small ship.

It's like you saying that.

That's like going to be my my model like I don't give I'm.

I'm doing the baby talk.

Yeah, I never did anything.

Like the Google got no.

I'm gonna talk to them like the grown.

I called my baby tank.

I asked you recite you in the face.

You say, no, daddy, I know what you saw me in the face.

But

Yeah.

She said she's a daddy I forgot you up, she said Daddy, I know scare you 'cause you bye?

Yeah so is is like like I said, for me it's just more so I'm looking forward to.

Yeah.

Already there.

The looking forward to see with this this next year.

Got in store for me as far as like so everything you're saying.

I'm taking into consideration, you know, soaking it in, but it's just.

Like it didn't like we at the end of the day.

You gonna do it.

You were right.

I know, I know, yeah, but you know, that's like the kids, 'cause I'll be here a little.

You won't hear it all.

And we go Brown, you ******

So you should get baby, I'm gonna I'm not buying no baby books I'm gonna learn like just some I'm gonna learn it on the fly man yeah I mean.

I mean, I don't know which is like a crazy number reach out, but.

Say.

It didn't that you you.

Loving person, you know what?

Hey, do you know what what happened?

Happened and one thing I'm.

Gonna be good at it will pay.

What complications did she have on the last pregnancy?

Additional Evans.

No, that's what she nervous about.

'cause it was smooth.

She thinks this will be.

Painful, I mean 'cause this DNA is different like that.

And for the listeners, yeah, for the listeners, right?

You know you've been listening for a minute.

We like a family.

We we got a new family member so.

We accept another gift for the baby shower.

Listen, you can never go wrong with bringing diapers or wipes.

Yeah.

Man can never have too much here.

There we go.

There.

We go set the narrative.

We put something together for Cisco.

That's our system.

We put something together for family can we is well.

Well right, yeah.

And like me again, you know, thank you all for tuning 1F radio. And like we always say have a good day on purpose.